We are who we are. We become what we must.
I don’t remember where I borrowed that statement but it is true all the same. So in light of that statement, the Reader’s Digest version of how I came to be Rosaliy.
In my freshman high school year, one day I decided I needed to dress as a girl. I tried for a long time to figure out why but the only thing I resolved was that it felt right to be a girl.
As I grew and discovered the online community, back in the $6 / connect hour dial up days, I was on a service where a group admin challenged me to take a girl name as if that would prove something. I accepted the challenge and used a girl name, along with others, but eventually left that service.
On another service some few years later, a friend thought I could pull off a girl role. At the time, a girlfriend and I were involved in a role-play group based on Anne McCaffrey’s Dragon Riders. I actually had two characters, a male – Bronze Dragon Rider, and a female who was Headwoman of the lower caverns. Both were strong and secure and both taught me things about myself.
During those early online years, I assumed my female character as an online persona. While I loved being her, she was still, for all intents and purposes, just a character.
It wasn’t until 2005 that I took my present name and became a real girl in every day life. Somewhere along the line I had stopped identifying as male although I stayed male for work and most legal purposes. Otherwise I was Rosaliy. Now that I am retired, I live full time as Rosaliy and even have her photo on my drivers license. As Rosaliy I am a far better girl then I ever was a boy and I am happier than ever. As Rosaliy I found my balance and consider myself not cd (Cross Dresser) but rather, tg (trans gender).
I have been blessed in many respects by the acceptance of others, young and old alike. Confident in my presentation, I smile a lot and have become more outgoing that I ever was before.
So to answer the question with which I started this post: What’s a t-girl to do?, I go on. I live life, make friends and enjoy it all.
Have a great day and be proud of yourself, whoever you are.